If truth is important to you, then you've got nothing to be afraid of. Searching for it can only lead you to a more real and fulfilling life.
Honest investigation is the truths best friend.
So I encourage you, start asking hard questions, it's the most honest thing you can do.
YouTube Channels to follow:
TheraminTrees: Knowledge is one thing. Communicating knowledge is something else. This guy is amazing at making tricky topics really easy to understand, and makes powerful points in doing so. https://www.youtube.com/user/TheraminTrees/videos
NonStampCollector: Really good videos questioning different stories in the bible. He highlights many areas I never considered while I was a Christian. https://www.youtube.com/user/NonStampCollector/videos
QualiaSoup: Good videos on Morality, Faith and Evolution. https://www.youtube.com/user/QualiaSoup/videos
Theoretical Bullshit: Scott is shall we say, quite strong about his views on God, but he's a very bright cookie. This is my favourite of his. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DvRPbsXBVBo
Matt Dillahunty: Matt’s an ex-Christian. He has an absolute wealth of knowledge. He’s heard every apologetic argument under the sun that Christians could throw at him. https://www.youtube.com/user/SansDeity/videos
DarkMatter2525 It’s a very popular channel, and you may be offended by these videos. Some are quite blunt and crude, but he makes very powerful points. https://www.youtube.com/user/DarkMatter2525/videos
CrashCourse: A crash course in philosophy relating to God. Sounds a little boring, but it's actually presented quite well! https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL8dPuuaLjXtNgK6MZucdYldNkMybYIHKR
PodCasts to listen to:
These can easily be downloaded to your phone to listen to in the car. You’ll be amazed at how enjoyable being stuck in traffic becomes!!
Directions: You can click on the links below, but the best way to listen to podcasts is to download the "podcast" app to your phone. For Apple phones, search "Podcast" in the App Store. For Android phones search "Podcast Radio Music - Cashbox" from the Google Play Store. Then just search for the podcast you want. i.e "A Christian And An Atheist". They're all free and can be downloaded for offline listening.
A Christian And An Atheist: A really good and honest discussion from both sides. I highly recommend listening to this. https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/a-christian-and-an-atheist/id117306719?mt=2
Unbelievable?: Another show which hosts debates and discussions between both Christians and non-Christians. https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/unbelievable/id267142101?mt=2
Life After God: Hosted by former pastor Ryan Bell. He interviews people who once had a strong faith, but ended up losing it. https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/life-after-god/id1032909038?mt=2
The Thinking Atheist. Interesting and honest talks on various topics surrounding belief in God. https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/thethinkingatheist/id412308695?mt=2
Books To Read:
For now, I’m just going to recommend one book to read.
50 Simple Questions For Every Christian. By Guy Harrison It’s a very easy read with short chapters, and asks genuine and real questions about Christian belief. I highly recommend this book. Totally worth the $25 to buy it.